Hi there
Thank you for leaving the heartfelt comment.
I wrote this article not knowing if there are others who feel this way, so getting comments like yours makes me feel conflicted.
On one hand, I'm glad to know I'm not the only one. I'm happy to know that my words helped you feel less lonely.
At the same time, I wish you didn't understand this post, because no one should have to feel this way.
It breaks my heart to know that you want to die. I think you're a great person for caring about how your mom feels despite how much pain you're in. I hope you won't take your own life, even when she's not around.
No matter how painful living is, I think we need to ask ourselves if it is life we want to escape from, or the psychological/mental pain we feel?
I hope you'll seek professional help, if you haven't already. If you have, please don't give up. And I hope that you'll somehow find something to live for. Is there something that brings you even a little bit of joy? I hope you'll focus on those.
The fact that you hope I'll keep fighting tells me there's a part of you that thinks life is worth living, but you don't feel like yours is... You know what, I hope you'll keep fighting too. I hope you'll win.
Love
Julie